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The Old Lady in My Bones

A Crooked Intrusion

DSC_0279It started with an ache that consumed my pinky over several days; at first it was easy enough to dismiss, for aches and pains were a daily occurrence; a few days later the ache became more intense accompanied with a sharp and distinct pain, different from the typical tenderness of RA. Had I inadvertently bruised or wounded my finger? I couldn’t recall.

I decided to make an appointment with my Rheumatologist. I thought perhaps I was in a flare and it might be a good time to check – it had been six months since my last visit. I chatted with the Rheumatology nurse first. She did a thorough examination, updating my file, asking me questions about the length of my morning stiffness and fatigue; she asked about any changes in vitamins, medications or exercise, checked for swelling and tender points, and tested my range of motion. She took my blood pressure and examined my hands probing each finger; when she reached my right pinky, a frown furrowed over her brow and she said, “I think there might be a nodule there…”

A what? A nodule? I was momentarily stunned. Wouldn’t that indicate damage? Haven’t I been doing all the right things, taking my medications, my vitamins, doing my exercises? Haven’t past x-rays, ultrasounds and CT scans shown everything to be normal? I couldn’t fathom how this little nodule had ripened on my finger, sneaking in like the proverbial weasel in a henhouse.

My Rheumatologist told me he would order an MRI to assess the damage; in the meantime, he was going to refer me to a special educational class where I could learn specific exercises to strengthen my hands and fingers. He did not see the need to change any of my medications – I guess he didn’t think it was too unexpected. I left the office, obsessively staring at my new finger bump; the more I looked at it the bigger it got. My imagination took over and all I saw was this mammoth crooked finger. In reality it wasn’t that bad – pretty tiny in comparison and, after all, it was on the smallest of fingers. Things could be worse.

I left that visit with a new bump and a bruised ego. I had lost this paltry battle, but before too long I recovered with a new determination to carry on and reinforce my barricade against old lady RA.



About J.G. Chayko

I am a writer living on the beautiful West Coast in Vancouver B.C. I am a poet at heart but also write prose, fiction and creative non-fiction. In my thirties, while working for a Rheumatology clinic, I was diagnosed with early Rheumatoid Arthritis. I created " The Old Lady In My Bones" to share my experience living with this disease and to create an awareness that arthritis touches people of all ages, not just the elderly.


One thought on “A Crooked Intrusion

  1. I have nodule on one of my fingers, I think maybe on two. At first it concerned me and then I forgot about it. As long as it doesn’t affect my mobility, and they don’t hurt, I don’t focus on them. Hope yours doesn’t give you any more trouble. The osteo pain of my left pinkie persists. That is a pain! Take care.

    Posted by Irma | May 6, 2014, 5:02 am

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